There back & we are still here

Remedy Drive was back for another amazing show at our church.
As "event coordinator" I helped facilitate the event with several other people.
Concert was scheduled to start at 7:00 pm ~ after the rapture.
Needless to say rapture did not happen & Harold Camping has a lot of explaining to do.
The concert wsas AWESOME.  The energy amazing.  I was thrilled to be a part of it.

Loved it!  Thank you David, Dave, Corey & Timmy Jones.  You guys rocked!

Dear Ben,

Dear Ben,
I love being your Mommy.  Being the only boy is a special thing for your.  Your not the oldest or the youngest but you are the only boy and that is your claim to fame.  With being boy comes lots of fun stuff.  Bare feet if possible.  No shirts if possible.  Outside if possible.  You never seem to be bothered by stuff that bothers others.  You are an easy going kid.  But boy have you been testing the boundaries lately.  You are challenging me so much.  I love my boy but when tiredness hits you or you get frustrated its like my kid got swapped out.  You love to snuggle and get hugs & kisses from everyone, especially your "sugar princesses."  You love your friends.  Your "best bud" Andrew & you can play for hours with minimal guidance.  You have the ability to solve your own problems together.  I love how you love music.  You are a schemer for sure.  I love you.  I just needed to take a moment to reflect on the trouble you have given me this week & remember how much I love you.  I think you are awesome and have the best eyes that sparkle with mischief and emotion.  You are my boy!  love, Mommy

Busy

Having a rough couple of days.  Cali is sick with stomache flu.  I feel like i can't get out to do the basics.  Like get groceries.  I've been doing extra laundry but not really washing what needs to get done.  I've been doing extra cleaning but my house is a mess.  Spend 2 1/2 hours at the pediatricians trying to get a urine sample for Miss Cali but no luck.  So hopefully it is not a UTI that is making her sick. . . but now I am worried b/c I am not sure if she is dehydrated or not.  She is drinking but seems to be vomitting or pooping it out.  I feel like my to-do-list is super long.  Tonight I am on my own. . . my husband has a meeting.  I was at Bible study last night with my red velvet cake without the red.  I look forward to taking a shower later.  Hope Cali is ok for going to school today to pick up the other kids.  they got rides to school. . . getting home is another story.  more coffee for me now. . .maybe a piece of cake.  Feeling overwhelmed by this sickness. . . it's supposed to be spring!  But instead it all feels yucky. 

Psalm 16:8

I keep my eyes always on the LORD.

With him at my right hand, I will not be shaken.

Need to Breathe

While i love the band by whom the title of this post was inspired, this is not about them.
This is about me.  Today was the first day back to school after spring break.  Now break was not restfull for our family.  It was good not to have a "schedule" b/c you know I am soooo schedule oriented.  But i liked not worrying about Cali not getting enough nap if she goes down after 1 and then we have to be at school at 3 for pick up.  Today went pretty well, other than Cassie forgetting her lunch & Ben crying at school b/c i would not let him play outside when the temp on March 28th was 27 degrees!  Cali is slowly getting better from her ear infection, caused by 2 year molar #3 coming in.  She is still feverish at times but when the advil is working she is just fine.  When it wears off, however, we are all in deep trouble. 
The really chaos started at a little before 5 when I had to go pick-up Cassie from school.  On mondays she stays late for guitar lessons. . . (that is another post all together) and once all 5 of us were under the same roof, it was not pretty.  Kids are hungry, tired, crabby, everyone wants to help make dinner, & no one is obeying.  It felt pretty stressful around here till just a short while ago when I put Cali & Ben in bed.  I think they are sleeping now.  Cass is upstairs. . . I told her lights out sometime ago but I still hear movement coming from above.  I am tired.  I need to breathe. . . alone.  I need to sleep. . . alone.  I need to think. . . alone.  I'm not wishing the years away, I am not.  I am just trying to find a few moments of solitude in a day.  Trying to use the bathroom without someone knocking or coming in.  I love my kids dearly.  I love them to pieces.  They just test my wits & resolve & patience & sanity & breath everyday.  So now that it is quiet, I am going to go plan for tomorrow.  I am going to open my book and read.  Tonight the book wins over the tv.  I can't wait to find out what happens next.

Sound of Your Voice - retreat 2011 theme song.

I ran away from your love



But you waited for me


Yes, you waited for me


And then I heard your song


Singing over me


Singing over me






Now that I hear you, Lord


I want to know you more


I want to know you more






Sing your song to me


Oh, there’s no greater thing


Than to listen to the sound of your voice


When I hear your song


I want to sing along


And listen to the sound of your voice


The sound of your voice






Lord, I am calling your name


And I’m waiting for you


Yes, I’m waiting for you


So won’t you show me your way


And I will follow you


Yes, I will follow you






Singing over me


Bringing peace and mercy


With a song that never ends


Singing over me


Marvelous and holy


Lord, I want to hear your song again

Bensim

Last night as I was tucking my very sleepy 4 year old into his bed his said this:
"Mommy it feels like there is something wrong inside my body when someone leaves"
With some questions like does it hurt, where do you feel it, when do you feel it and poking this came out;
"it feels like sad"
when bud?
"when daddy leaves for a meeting, when Nana & Pop leave our house, when Madeline leaves, when you go out, when we leave somewhere."
My boy loves his peeps!

Failure

I loved the idea of a picture a day. . . it is not going well for me.  I forget or really don't know what to take a picture of.  I feel like all the pics of my kids are all the same.  Yesterday we cooked for the men from the homeless shelter who come to stay at our church every Sunday night during the cold months with our high school youth group and I forgot to bring my camera.  It was a crazy day b/c I ended up taking Cali to the pediatrician because of the fever she had been running.   Turns out she has a double ear infection and was wheezing.  Then after a nebulizer treatment, it was still not good, so to the hospital we went for an x-ray!  Yikes.  Talk about a crazy morning.  Round that out with a trip to the pharmacy for some antiobiotics, a nebulizer machine and some meds.  It was not fun.  On top of that at school drop off this morning, she wanted to run with the big kids (the air was warmer and it was i thought some fresh air might be good for her) she ended up falling a cutting her lip open.  Lots of blood.  Her lip is all puffy now.  that is my picture for today.  There are pictures on my cellphone that i could use for some of the days. . .but I do not know how to take them off.  I might try that today!  Happy Monday All!!!